Clouds and Sun,
Thinngs seem to always look worse before they get better. your pain is my pain, I hate driving but have to because I have children, but when I can get some where by walking I do. I also have a estranged family relationship, but I need to address that to move forward. Maybe if you tried to reach out again to family You would get a different response. I know how real the pain is and I wish I could take it away for you. Just remember as some one else said you have a purpose on this earth it just has not been discovered. never give up and remember there is support and love right here on PC.