When I do it I totally forget I'm doing it and I'm complelty normal. If my T ever found out he would have enough brains to know as to why I was doing it. I have enough cognitive distortions, it makes it almost impossible to remember what happens in sessions correctly. I lose out of everything he is trying to help me understand because of my negative filters. He would understand. I can't note take the entire session, and note taking loses context, and meanings.

The recordings have taught me where I placed a negative filters where I shouldn't have. Where I showed resistance, pushed him away, made mistakes, missed points he was trying to make, forgot to say things...truly very helpful.