I am asking myself the same questions. And I wish I had the answer for you. "DO I HAVE to remember"? And I don't know. I guess it's like you said. Maybe best for you, but not best for our parts who are still stuck in the past. I suppose it wouldn't kill you to take a break though. I've been therapistless for a good three months now, searching and searching. And I've had to learn to depend on my coping mechanisms a lot to keep the parts safe. And that's not a bad thing.

I totally understand about being the test subject . That happened to me twice so far and you're right it doesn't go over well. And then I get revictimized if I try to talk about it. I had a therapist last week who was like "Sorry I don't know about DID" and I loved that. I am so tired of trauma therapists thinking they can put band aids on DID casis. Some of the questions I'm going to ask my next therapist, which is what I asked this one last week, which got me a straight answer are.

"Do you specialize in DID?" Now sometimes they will answer "Yes" and this means they've only worked with two cases who had 2 or 3 self states. I have 16, or more, so that doesn't work.

So my next question is.

"Can you give me a roundabout of how many patients you have worked with, with DID?"

I am tayloring the questions to my needs, and my needs are that I become very suicidal when we start going over abuse so I ask

"Have you ever had to deal with harmful parts/introjects?"

So maybe there's some questions like that you need to ask.