I get like that too. When I hear bad things happen to good people and I hear how well they or the people around them deal with it.... It makes me hate myself more for not being able to cope with what's going on in my life. I don't have cancer, my children didn't die, I have a roof over my head, and family who loves me. Why do I think my life is so bad that I need to hurt myself to feel better?

Maybe it's something like that?