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Originally Posted by lonelyplanet
Hey Ap, I knew I could count on you to give me encouragement. Thanks so much, I really appreciate it. Its good to know someone else went through this aswell and not only me. Everything I said in the letter was true, but it was true for me. It wasn't that I was saying bad things about her, just about the feelings I had about her. This probably doesn't make a whole lot of sense, but its just making me cringe now thinking of it. I still trust that what I said in the letter is true, except I told her I didn't trust her, and I think that was really a terrible thing to say, cos she has been building up the trust for a good few months, and to say that must have really hurt her. She sounded kind of annoyed onthe phone, but yep I think if I don't go, I will regret it. Maybe I should go, but OMG I'd say I'll be in bits all day Wednesday and probably not sleep on Tuesday night.
Have you any tips on how to actually start off when I sit down (will you come with me lol)  |
I'll definitely come with you on Wednesday!
When is your appointment? Wed afternoon/evening? (Will you come with me tomorrow morning?
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Beginning is so hard. Personally, I have to focus on just being able to breathe for several minutes after sitting down. What I've tried doing the past couple of weeks is to plan my first sentence, and time it so it's something I can say on a single breath, and just take a deep breath and let it out. Write the sentence down on an index card if you're not sure you can get it out (that's advice that I've got from a friend in RL, but not yet followed
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And it makes perfect sense that you were talking about your feelings about her, rather than about her.