4 years ago today was the last time I ever saw my mom outside of a hospital, just before she had surgery for lung cancer.

This is making for a really tough day.

Add to it the phyisical issues I am having, and I want to give up. I want to si. I want to disappear.

I should have called my t today, she tells me to when my days get this bad, but i didn't. I give up.