you've looked at life from both sides now, as Judy Collins used to sing, .... learning through living, making choices, trial and error. Learn learn learn. Screw up, fix up, learn, forgive, move on. It goes round and round until we figure our place in it out.
You sound normal to me...... go ahead and breath, you're not a bad person. I bet you were trying to take care of yourself. That is a good thing. Ya know? ))))))) jaxy ((((((((