Hey everybody,

Just a little update. It's very early am here, can't sleep (I never sleep well the night before I go anywhere early, on top of my period coming---I never sleep well before that, maybe a little hypomania).

I have done almost all of my packing-I made a couple of lists (I'm quite organized when I need to be, , and purposely spaced getting it all done over a few days; nothing like rushing to pack and worried like hell I'm missing something. I may still, but I know the essentials are in the suitcase.

My friend should be here mid-morning, and off we go. I am trying not to get nervous in advance, but it's hard. I'm already missing my animals, and my boyfriend (I rely on him a lot, especially emotional support), and I've had moments where my head's like, "I don't want to go. I don't want to do this. I want to cancel.) The big buggaboo for me is the driving; the last time I was in a car for more than 45 minutes was well over a year ago, and this will be a 4+ hour drive one way. I've got my med for if I panic, I have my walkman with cds so if my friend wants to play something I don't like/is hard on my ears I can listen to my own stuff. It's just the between here-and-there part. I believe once we arrive at the hotel I'll be more at ease. And the concert will be great. And I canNOT wait to see my aunt and uncle; haven't seen them in years, they have this wonderful, warm house, and they're simply great people. I am a little nervous because I haven't seen in them in awhile, and my weight has doubled since then. They do know I'm Bipolar and on meds, and that I've gained a lot. I just don't want them to be shocked,

Oh well. In a few hours I'll be heading out, and it'll go however it's gona go.

Just cross your fingers for me yall okay???