just a footmote on your last post, pfm.
i would demand-if that's a good word-for your T to focus on
your own concerns re your addiction. i went to AA but my T helped me work out all the stuff in paralell to AA. the combo really helped me get better faster. i hope you will attend some 12 step meetings. you need that support to help you stop drinking, imho.
your drinking history you've shared here are classic symptoms. some ppl think they are only good socially when they drink. some ppl run/escape from their life problems and numb those feelings with alcohol or drugs. some ppl have a dual diagnosis. i did. my bipolar kept me running back to alcohol so we had to treat both at the same time for success.
please know that if you get sober you will discover yourself again. you will find you can cope with life without self-medicating it away.
you will be living your life. there's much for you to discover particularily since you've used/drank for so long. your family is your concern too but the most important person is YOU. they've made their choice. but your choice can be much better to live a fulfilling life. you will find hope, peace, serenity, joy, stability, etc if you get sober. it is a worthwhile way to live. far better than throwing away your life with booze. i'm speaking from my own experiences. the promises of AA assure us of wonderful things. i can promise to you these things will happen to you. how can i promise you that? because i and many others have had them all come true. life is beyond my imagination. so much joy! you deserve this joy too.
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The Promises, that are read in many A.A. Meetings can be found on page 83-84, of the Big Book, Alcoholics Anonymous.
THE A.A. PROMISES If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and selfpity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us—sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
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