So what can you do for the next 48 hours to get through? Put the pills (benzos) away. Get out of the house. Go see a movie. Go see two movies. Go for a few long walks. Ask a friend out for lunch/dinner. As much as it goes against the grain when your depressed, make yourself stay as much among people as possible. Even if you aren't personally socializing with them, just being in the vicinity of other people can keep you safe. You can do this.