I am doing EMDR with some talk therapy with T1. I have been going every other week because it can be really intense and I don't know if I can 'do more' with how busy my life is.

Today in EMDR my T mentioned how we need to really work on building a 'foundation' of security within myself in order to feel confidence etc...
She asked me if there was anyone I felt valued by in my life. I told her my grandmother made me feel that way (unfortunately she died when I was 13). T then asked if there was anyone else that I felt that from. Someone who I drew strength from to help me make the changes I wanted/needed in my life (health/wellness). I told her "you". "You believed in me when I didn't believe in myself". T just smiled and said is there anyone else? I said perhaps a teacher when I was in middle school. She praised my art work and I felt like she valued me. It felt like I mattered in the world.

We then went on to do some EMDR and we focused on my grandmother and how I felt about her and why. How I felt loved by her. My T then asked if there was anyone else I could think of and I wanted to say "You" but I didn't because in my head I said to myself: "perhaps that would make her feel uncomfortable?" "Perhaps the rules are it can never be about her?" - of course I kept this all in my head. When I see her again in two weeks I'm going to ask the questions I was asking in my head but never said out loud.

Any thoughts? - especially those who went through EMDR or therapy in general. Having it be about your T is ok? right? There really is no one else that I feel that unwavering support from (other than maybe marriage T as well - she is my other guardian angel).

Sorry for the book!