Slept well, but after I woke, I felt dread and emptiness at the prospect of another day. I don't want to be alone, but I don't want to be around anyone either. I have a million things I need to do here but I don't want to do them.

My mind is full of thoughts of self-recrimination and sadness, and I feel sort of broken inside today. I tell myself they are all just thoughts, to observe them and let them go, and that I usually feel worse at the beginning of the day. I will keep trying because I don't know what else to do. Maybe some other distraction to stop the tears and shaky feelings.