How do you let your T be there for you? To help you? My T told me last night that I am in so much pain, and I wont let her help me feel better even though she's sitting there in front of me willing to help.

And she doesn't understand why- if its because I don't think she can help, if I don't think it will work (mindfulness activity that I dislike), or if its because I don't want help.

I think maybe because I don't deserve her help. And I don't know how to accept it.

I told her to terminate me and she said she can't because I am depressed and suicidal.