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Tomorrow I start day treatment program that is to last for 9-12 months. M-F 8:30-2:30 plus transportation. A major chunk of my life. My boyfriend is happy I am getting help, but he worries about the inflexibility. (It is not like we get vacation time.)
I am nervous about the program and the rigidity. I do not know what to expect. I have no idea of the structure. I was in partial hospitalization treatment program a couple of years ago elsewhere, but I know they are all different.I know we have a lot of groups and clinical time. I know I get to keep my T. and my pdoc- they are next door, which helps. I know we "all make lunch together and it is $2 a day. That stresses me out. I am really picky about food and do not eat meat or poultry. Just fish. (Vegetarian + Fish)... very little dairy (I try not to). I also have some weird food habits when eating. I know it must sound like a dumb thing to be stressed about, but it is honest.
What if I hate it? What if no one likes me or I do not like anyone? What if they try to make me eat meat? What if they do not let me do my cleanse (specific liquids only for two weeks) that I do every Spring and Autumn?
What if... what if... what if? Why am I such a wreck about this?
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