Well, I got married to someone I didn't love. I was totally manic and trying to prove that I wasn't "stupid and lazy and no one would ever marry me" like my dad said...

So yeah. But, at the same time, my oldest son wouldn't exist, and maybe not my other sons either. Because of my ex he led me to the road that led me to my current husband. So all the important people in my life would not be here if I hadn't of done that....

It's one of those mixed issues.