Rachel.i - What you say today sounds so much like what I say to myself at times and how I think. I'm sorry you feel that way. Not wanting to do the things that need doing is so discouraging. Yet you are able to say that you will "keep trying." If you can manage that, it's a lot. When you can keep trying, despite how pointless it can seem, it's like saving little sums of money thinking that it will never add up to much. It does add up. The little victories over the inertia that comes with despair do build up your inner strength, or at least keep one from crumbling more. Distraction can be a bridge over an interval of time that would only be spent in misery, without the distraction.

Now . . . if I can only convince myself to try . . . even a little bit today. I fell back into the hole. Got out of it on Saturday . . . and then fell back in.