Welcome.

First thing that stands out is please be careful. I recently had a friend die of blood poisoning because he had a leg infection. I don't want that to happen to anyone here.

And second I can't tell you if you should be in therapy. only you can say if you should be in therapy.

No matter which way - going or not it has to be because you want and need to be there based on what your problems are and what you want to solve during therapy.

If you don't want to do role playing the therapist is not going to make you do role playing. Tell the therapist you don't want to and they will back off.

Therapists gear the sessions based on what each individual client brings into the sessions and what they want to do.

For example my next appointment my therapist and I will be doing a relaxation visualization and recording the session. This is something we planned together at the last two sessions.

But its not etched in stone. If I go in and want to do something else I tell LL and we do what I want to do.

Basically you get out of therapy what you put into it. If you don't stop the therapist and say no this is what I want to talk about and this is what I want to do, all the therapist can do is guess what to do based on their training and what has worked for their other clients.

So suggestion - sit down and write down

Why YOU (not your mother) feel you need to be in therapy?

Why YOU want to be in therapy?

What are YOUR problems?

What do YOU want to accomplish in therapy?

What are YOU willing to do during therapy?

What are YOU not willing to do during therapy?

Brainstorm ideas for solving your problems.

Then based on those answers decide if you need and want to be in therapy.

If so start looking for a new therapist and then take that paper in with you and show it to the new therapist.

You will basically be going into the therapist with your therapy goals already. then its just a matter of your therapist and you following YOUR therapy plan.

Not set by your mother
not set by your therapist.
Your therapy plan set by YOU.

Hang in there.