Thanks riotgrrrl. I've looked at absolutely everything I could think of to get help. We've been rejected everywhere. She doesn't qualify for any type of benefits because they say she is too young - she is in her 50s. They won't offer any help at all. Without insurance things are even harder. I don't know if we even have support groups around. I've looked before and couldn't find anything close to me. That is why I'm here. I just feel so alone and not able to talk to anyone. I have no friends left.

I've tried what you suggested - walk away for just a couple of hours. It was really bad. She almost set the entire kitchen on fire and said she would kill herself. I can't leave her alone. She does that all the time and then threatens me. I don't know what to do. I forgot to mention that last night she was talking to herself in between yelling at me. It was really scary - she was doing different voices and everything. It was hard to even understand her. I get that she is frustrated. She really wants to find a job but can't. There are almost no job openings around. She has recovered really well from her ministrokes, but it's just every once in a while something sets her off. I feel completely lost. I see that she is manipulating me, but I still need to take care of her. I can't leave her and no one else will help me. I hope that made sense because I'm typing in between tears here.