-sigh- where to begin.... i feel dead, pain killers won't even take away the pain now. i'm alone and shattered, i can't bring myself to cut. I'm just to tired to do anything. My life is a prison and i can't escape. People in my life don't understand the constant pain and fear i deal with they always downgrade my feelings to just a bored teenager with things see isn't happy about. nothing is going to change the way i feel....Something is wrong with me... i feel numb nearly everyday, i hear things sometimes, i don't eat like i used too. too me my life has no meaning... and i can't see my future as anything but this.... i just don't know.