I am engaged to a 41 year old man who i found out recently has a teenager fetish and gets off while looking at the pics of teens..even tho he said he has stopped an i am sure he has it has made me depressed i cant sleep.. havent slept in almost 2 days .. all this has made me hate myself so much i wish i was dead. I feel old and disgusting now around him and i have to go down the road for walks just to get away from him then i temp feel beter. I dont know how i can leave him because i love him so much but at the same time that has maked me so depressed i just cant stand it and im afraid ill never get over that.

I would just like someone's advice and what they would do if they were in my shoes i don't know if it will help me any but at least i am geting a chance to get this out of my system a little i guess.