I still dont get it though, Why am i so recluctant to try and get help? Why do i sit here and let myself suffer silently? Why can't i see i have a problem? Why do i care what others think? why am i letting my fears get the best of me? why do i try to convince myself i am overreacting? I wish i knew the answer to this puzzle..... Sorry for rambling, i am just extremely tired, and frustrated at the moment...