I feel like I'm alive again, more alive than I have been in my entire life! 9 days clean and sober, still white nuckling it though.

Just finished an application for a rehab, got the note from my doctor that I needed to (this rehab does not allow any psychotropic meds, so the doc had to give his ok in writing), getting it in the mail tomorrow, and then I am on a waiting list for up to 8 weeks.