I feel consumed by bipolar. My depressions are awful. I just started getting over a hypomanic state where I nearly lost everything about a month ago. It's still lingering. I'm agitated. I see my T once a week. I chart my moods. I take pills for this everyday. I come on here. I'm trying to make changes in my life to gain control over this but it all adds up to feeling more and more consumed. The meds aren't working. I have zero coping skills and I'm terrified of my next episode because I know I will lose it all for sure next time. You guys all go through this too. Do you ever feel consumed by this? It's left and right, up and down, in my cabinets, on my calendar, in my relationships, everywhere.