depression is NOT your fault. I am going through a divorce caused by depression and self-medication with alcohol. my soon to be ex wife is firmly convinced that I chose to be this way, when nothing could be farther from the truth. Those that do not suffer from depression can rarely understand it's power and magnitude. we have to help one another. our road is hard enough without letting anyone else judge us. allowing outsiders to give us a hard time is not a good idea. you can make it, just don't let anyone discourage you.
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Originally Posted by krissy702001
I have a best friend who has been there for me. She took me to the hospital, she was supportive to me while I there, and took me back home after 9 days. I have no close family or other friends to talk to. I have depression and anxiety. I am on meds and in therapy. I thought she understood the nature of the disease as she told me she studied it while I was in the hospital. We talk almost every day. She asked me how I felt today. I told her the crying spells were coming back for the past 2 days. She told me that everyone gets sad and that is a normal part of life. Then she told me I did not have enough faith in God. Then she gave me a "pep talk" about all I needed to do was change my negative thoughts, and I would not feel so bad. I felt demeaned, and my feelings are hurt. And I am angry with myself that I trusted her and let myself be open with her since people will always let you down.
I am working on changes. I went back to work last week since leaving the hospital. I left my apt both Sat and Sun (which I have a strong tendency to stay home) and got out. I am working on this. The meds seem to be helping also. I felt like she was telling me the depression is all my fault, and I just need to make changes. I am making changes, but maybe not up to her pace.
Thanks for listening,
Krissy
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