I'm doing better at the moment. Coping with the ups and downs of the day, the daily roller coaster ride without too many issues....and the loneliness has stayed at bay for the last day or two. Usually gets worse in bed late at night or early in the morning. I fight with my husband and get moody at least a time or two everyday, but he's used to my ups and downs though he still doesn't get the BPD. Lol...he even mentioned this morning that he has to walk on eggshells around me...the name of that one BPD book. The loneliness goes in cycles. I'll be okay, more or less, for a few days...convince myself I'm healing, strengthing, and then it will come crashing down yet again....and all the rest of the BPD crap becomes more difficult at the same time. It will be a long time before no more crashes occur, but the time in between is slowly getting longer. That's all I can ask for. Thank everyone for your help. I owe you.