Trying to Figure out my life. Being open and dealing with my depression out loud is very new to me. I don't really understand what I'm going through all the time. I've been dealing with depression for about 6 years. I was recently hospitalized and was forced to deal with my depression. My friends don't really understand what I'm going through. They all think it should be magically fixed or like I can control the depression. I've also been trying to find the right therapist to go to. Everyone asks if I'm ok and I say yes so no one worries but I'm really not ok. I feel like I'm stuck in 'muddy water' not happy or sad but in limbo. Any advise?