Anika said it perfectly.
I regret throwing away any chance at security in later life by spending like a drunken sailor on shore leave for the past 15 years. Now it's too late, we are drowning in red ink and will never draw a debt-free breath again in this lifetime.
I regret the years I spent making my family as crazy as I was with my mercurial moods. They never knew which wife/mother was going to walk through the door at the end of the day......I loved them all so much, and I was just so bloody inconsistent.
I regret abusing alcohol and being unable to control my drinking once I got started. Almost 21 years of sobriety haven't cured that, and I know I can never touch booze again. I can't even take the wine at Communion.
I also regret that it took so damned long to find out what was wrong with me, and that I was so resistive to getting help.
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