I am a mom of 4. They were all born before my diagnosis. I had depression in all of my pregnancies, but the 4th was what led to my diagnosis. I was in a hole I couldn't get out of. I felt like the baby was the cause of all my pain. Towards the end of my pregnancy I had thoughts of hurting the baby, wanting to get her out because I was sure I'd feel better if she was just out of me. Dr wanted to hospitalize me, but instead my husband took time off and spent the rest at home with me. Worst experience in my life, however I think if I had known I was bipolar it would have helped some, at least I would know why it felt that way. They were painful but I'd never give them up. I wouldn't ever go into another pregnancy without a really solid game plan. Good luck!