This year alone I have stopped and restarted my meds 5-6 times. I really can't help it. I feel better or have been symptom free for a wee while so my stupid head says stop. So I do. Then I am paying for it for weeks after I go back on them with sever side effects.

No matter how many people tell me not to stop, I ignore them. Its like this rebellion streak in me (ironically I have never been rebellious as a teenager) so no idea where this comes from.

Last week I was highly anxious after not taking my meds and lied to my support worker that I was fine even though she knows me well enough to know I was lying. She probably does know I lied and I am dreading seeing her today as I have yet again been off for a few days. I said 5-6 times I have been off this year, that's a lie. I really don't know but its a good few more than 6.

Side effects ugh!! Feeling it today. Its like a sever hangover times a million!!