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Old Oct 03, 2012, 07:13 AM
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Originally Posted by scorpiosis37 View Post
If one of the things you like about the small talk with T is the sense of connection you get, the ability to ask her questions, and the feeling of getting to be close to her that way-- I can tell you that opening up to her about you and how you really feel will enhance that connection and closeness. When I have a session where I share a lot about how I feel, or about my childhood, or about the really deep stuff-- there might be a moment where I feel embarassed or worried that it will make T feel differently about me or that it will make her think I'm not "fun" becuase we aren't laughing like we often do-- but afterwards, T will say to me "Thank-you for sharing. This is the closest I've ever felt to you" or "I'm so glad you were able to share; I feel like I know you so much better now, and I really want to know you better." I've learned, over time, that it really enhances my relationship with T when I let her in and let her see me how I really am-- and not try to put on a happy front when I don't really feel that way. And, of course, it's helped me process and work through things. After all, T is there to be our therapist. As my T would say, sometimes we can relate to one another in a friendly way or a maternal way, but her role in my life is as my therapist; if she's not doing therapy with me, then she isn't really doing her job. But it's my responsibility to give her the information and cooperation she needs in order to do that job. After all, making the decision to "step up" and really put 100% into my therapy is the way that I can take responsibility for my life and do my part to make sure I get the most out of the one life I have-- because I'm not going to get another one!
You are right Scorposis. You have a really wonderful T, I am a little envious. Mine could be wonderful too but I am not giving her the chance to be. She is doing what she thinks I need and following my lead. I am really bad at telling people what I need so this is going to be very difficult for me tomorrow. Ex T was the opposit, we never laughed and it was always with the serious stuff...she just sat and listened and never thought me how to deal with all of these emotions.
New T, always answers my questions about my ex and my mother and why they do things, Ex T would never tell me anything and bring it back to me and why do I need to know all of this. I don't know how is right or wrong or they are both right in their own way. New T is not very sympathetic , or maybe its because she is around the same age as me, we curse a lot and call people bit**** hahaha.. and it does help because EX t tried to get me to get my anger out all the time but I could never do it with her because I liked her so much.
Damn feelings :P
I haven't felt this bad in a long time and it scares me again because they are so intense and I am afraid that I won't be able to talk myself out of them. T knew I was sui at the first session because we emailed but she never mentioned it since and sometimes I ask her can she start because I can't but she wont do this because she likes the client to be in charge of their own session. Sometimes I sit there for 30 mins saying nothing.