In the beginning I let it consume me well it comsumed me for over several years before I acknowledged it was there I got my dx and then the feeling of being consumed really took off because like you say you try to do everything you can to get better. I found that doing that drove me nuts so I stopped I just was me and if I had an episode hold on and if not enjoy it. That's what I would suggest don't immured yourself to much because yeah it's something you have to deal with but it doesn't have to be who you are.