Anika, I do not dwell on the episode, it's just a mixture of everything. Maybe instead of looking at things as bipolar, bipolar, bipolar, I should just look at this new diet and exercise and meditation as a way of staying healthy. All of that at least is what anyone, bipolar or not, could do to stay healthy. Thank you for letting me know that it may not keep getting worse, that there is hope.

Clinte, that's just another thing. I know there's a big controversy about "I am bipolar" vs. "I have bipolar" and for a while there, I considered myself as being bipolar because for as long as I can remember, it's been so ingrained in who I am but now I am trying to convince myself otherwise. I think that will be beneficial once I actually get to that point. I suppose I need to first fully accept that I have this illness and that is a tough one to wrap my head around fully. Perhaps you're right. Not that I should quit caring or stop trying but maybe I should take baby steps. Instead of suddenly immersing myself in all of these new changes -diets, exercise regimens etc. - maybe I should gradually ease myself into it. Little by little. Maybe then I won't feel so consumed if I give myself a little time to adjust here and there. Thank you.