Quote:
Originally Posted by dubblemonkey
I cannot see I am so upset I don't know what has happened my mind has just blitzed!
hours have passed and days or two or three I don't know?
something has upset me I don't want to get in my own way and I cannot I'm too sad.
I don't know what feelings are anymore I forgot to be mad
I am just sad
is this mania?...
it's so uncomfortable though powerful sad either way I cannot be bothered I'm so tired of it
and it will keep going it's gonna try and kill me I won't let it.
I am so exhausted but my emotions are running way too hot for me...
please I want to just be cool..
where does this mania come from
dumb look and mouth open...twisted fingers I don't know?
what the F'?
|
Sometimes when my mania gets bad, I understand where you are coming from.
Thoughts get racing so fast, I feel like I'm losing touch.
I feel like I'm losing my mind.
Sometimes it seems like my life is coming apart at the seams.
It is so hard to try to keep it all together.
So temping to just let it go.
So temping to just let it take over.
I want to hand it the reins and see where it takes me.
But I'm so afraid of where it will go.
I'm not really sure I want to go there.
If I just hand over the controls.
Will I ever get them back?
Or will I forever be lost?