I recently told my T about a specific voice I've been hearing for over 10 years now. It's the first time I've ever told a professional about it. Hell, I didn't even tell ANYONE until about a year ago. He immediately called in the pdoc & I had an official meeting with her a couple days ago. She decided to prescribe me Risperdal and Trazadone, along with increasing my Lamictal and continuing my Klonopin.

So, I'm posting because I'm honestly kind of scared. This voice has been cruel and abusive and he makes me feel AWFUL, but, he's been around for so long. He seems like that asshole friend that you keep around because you feel like you need them for some reason. As Dr. Steven Levenkron said, "When the familiar is grotesque, a person will seek the grotesque." Also, I've looked into the side effects of Risperdal and gaining weight is a MAJOR concern of mine. I'm already obese and have been trying very hard to lose weight with very little success.

Basically, I'd just like to ask for others' opinions on the medication(s). I know everyone reacts to things differently, but typically, what kind of things could I/should I expect? Are there any recommendations of other types of meds I could suggest to the pdoc?