There's a difference between brilliance and manic art? I honestly did not know this

My view? Take it as it is, enjoy it, and milk it as much as possible! Like you said, you clean it up after to make sure its sensible, so why question what it is and where it comes from. I dont see how it matters. Unless you are of cors still unaccepting of your bp dx, then I can see how you may struggle with embracing it...