It does make sense, but I'm unsure whether it's a self-esteem issue or not. Partly, perhaps, because I'm used to being physically healthy and active. But the low back injury has sort of taken that away. I was, in a way, like my father who would ride away on his harley when things got tough for him when I was a child (eventually leading to my emancipation at 15 years old, 13 years ago). I however would push myself hard in outdoor sports until I pushed too hard and injury resulted. Some things have caught up to me. My supportive wife believes it to be poor self esteem brought out by never having family support. At times I feel like I lean on her too heavily. Without her, I'd likely be homeless on the streets of coastal California. (Partly, in truth to the cost of living here)
Ryan