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Originally Posted by TheHighPriestess
Anika, I do not dwell on the episode, it's just a mixture of everything. Maybe instead of looking at things as bipolar, bipolar, bipolar, I should just look at this new diet and exercise and meditation as a way of staying healthy. All of that at least is what anyone, bipolar or not, could do to stay healthy. Thank you for letting me know that it may not keep getting worse, that there is hope.
Clinte, that's just another thing. I know there's a big controversy about "I am bipolar" vs. "I have bipolar" and for a while there, I considered myself as being bipolar because for as long as I can remember, it's been so ingrained in who I am but now I am trying to convince myself otherwise. I think that will be beneficial once I actually get to that point. I suppose I need to first fully accept that I have this illness and that is a tough one to wrap my head around fully. Perhaps you're right. Not that I should quit caring or stop trying but maybe I should take baby steps. Instead of suddenly immersing myself in all of these new changes -diets, exercise regimens etc. - maybe I should gradually ease myself into it. Little by little. Maybe then I won't feel so consumed if I give myself a little time to adjust here and there. Thank you.
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Yes, exactly, here you go. you have just talked yourself through it and came to the perspective that is healthiest for you. you have this power, none of us directly said ease into it, baby steps, etc. but what a perfect plan!
See you can do this, you've been doing it all along. the bp dx can't change who you already were, just your perspective. it is good to question everything, even your thoughts and feelings. but believe in yourself too. there's a reason that you resonate with the key 2 of high priestess and what she stands for wisdom, intuition, mystic vision. you have this in you, you're doing great.
About the klonopin, i take them i think they're helpful. takes the edge off. i try to take them sparingly because you build up a tolerance to them and they begin to feel not as effective pretty fast. they're also deadly addictive like alcohol. so don't get too attached to them, but for right now, sounds like it could help you get through this time. i take 1-2 at night to help me relax and sleep. just try to look at that one as a short term fix. you don't want to be on it for years.