So I missed out on something really special all thanks to not having $12 back in May. I didn't know I was missing out on something when it happened, but it's come to light just yesterday. Now I'm totally in rage about it... I think it's triggering me to go manic. I can't change what is missed. It's too late. The past has passed...

But... I'm obsessing and crying over it... it's so dumb....

I think it's because I'm feeling left out or left behind... and... that's a big trigger. I need to get over it!