Yes sometimes I do have the confusion, and although it doesn't matter per say where it is coming from, it is still coming from you, the thing I have had trouble with is this....

If it is born from mania, or certain qualities of it that I want, and I am not manic often, then how can a tap into this same aspect that I am looking for when not manic? There are many different ways and methods I use to create, and when I am manic, it is a different quality than when I am not.. not better or worse, just different. So in that sense it makes a difference to me. And I think we can tap into it when not manic, it is within us somewhere.

It is your brilliance, whether manic or not, like everyone said, so try to embrace it and enjoy it..