called my T over the weekend and left a check in like she wants me to do, but I felt the content of the check in should have made her want to contact me. Boy was I wrong. I finally got the nerve to call and request a call back and when she did I was still upset and didnot want to talk, so we had a 2 minute conversation. Felt so guilty about my behavior that I left her a V/M apologizing for being rude and disrespectful. But truthfully I still feel I was right to be upset,figured she knew me well enough to hear the hurting in my voice and know I needed that call back. Then the mature part of me says you don't get if you do not ask. so confused . called today and asked for a call back but then turned around and cancelled it. Thursday's are my T day but she will not be in tomorrow so I have to not see her for another week, Do I gonext week or do I hang on to this anger that she knows nothing of? After 2.5 years of working together I should be able to verbalize all these emotions going through me, but I can't so afraid I will upset her and I have this need to protect her. I am going no where very fast. really would like to hear her voice but to embarrassed to call back.