It is good and bad. Good because it can drive me to do things I wouldn't normally do, just so I will learn not to be unreasonably anxious over things and sometimes it is so consuming, exhausting having to reason with anxious thoughts, waste of time and energy. Can't I just be reasonable the first time around?

Doesn't do any better to just give in either. Worse really.

And sometimes it is good because it prevents me from doing something stupid but, too much and prevents me from doing anything at all. Confidence is shot right now, someone went and threw a granade there too so, I'm picking up the pieces.

I always hated jigsaw puzzles.

ANXIETY!!!!!

I've been having so much lately and I probably spend the majority of my day battling with it, wasting my time, getting tired...exhausted, heart racing, hands shaking, swimming in sweat, no need for cardio workouts!

I can be logical, reason with it, challenge myself and face my fears but, end of the day? I just want to curl up in the fetal position, rock myself into a coma. No more thinking, no more anxiety.

I hate phases like this but, it's a phase. Three weeks from now, I'll wake up excited. That too, tiring.

I guess I'll end my rant and distract myself with something else.