I think you've got the right attitude, High Priestess, and things will get better. You have a good psychotherapist and adding Clonazepam (Klonopin) is excellent. It's so helpful for sleep and short term anxiety.

About thinking so much that you have bipolar: listen to me, please. Consider this to be a cerebral allergy. You will find out as you go along that more than anything it's a combination of having things in your diet that you didn't know could accumulate in tissues and organs and give you reactions like these.

Keep your diet "clean"; you know what I mean by that--we've talked about it so much recently.

Meditation helps; spiritual resources (in reading) are excellent.

Sleep is vital. Get on a regularly scheduled sleep time and adhere to it.

Watch your diet like a hawk. You cook for your family; give them the best in green vegetables, salads, etc. Watch what you drink like two hawks!

Keep yourself hydrated with purified water. Don't eat anything that has sugar in it and don't drink coffee, either with or without caffeine, same with tea, and chocolate, (especially chocolate is bad for me). Do the lemon thing when you feel agitated (about every 4 hours -two lemons ought to do it.)

Give yourself space for quiet during the day. Provide the children with a quiet activity that they might do to give you some time of your own. You're running a family and that is stressful.

Remember, consider this a cerebral allergy that can be tamed with diet and meds.

If your relationship with your husband gets too close for comfort, talk to your psychiatrist about that, particularly. I really don't like the idea that he is giving you one more chance. He needs to work with you, not create more tension for you or be a catalyst for fear.

Take care and let us know how you are feeling.