I just feel the need to babble since I am in incurable insomniac, so here it goes. I have been having so much trouble sleeping lately. I've always had trouble sleeping throughout my entire life, but its to the point now where I stay up all night and get overwhelmingly aggitated. I get so mad at myself because I cant sleep that I cry and often it leads to self-destructive behaviors. I've told my doctor about this. I was on ambien for 4 or 5 months or so, and it worked like a charm in getting me to sleep, but I couldnt always STAY asleep. Now, after od-ing on it several times, he is pretty resistant to rx me anything to help me sleep. He just keeps upping the dosage of my abilify, in hopes that it will mute the racing thoughts and insomnia. It doesn't. Though I understand his reasons behind not giving me any more ambien, there has to be something surely that can help me sleep and stay asleep. Has anyone had any experience with this? and if so, did anything work? I'm to the point where I get absolutely desperate for sleep, and the fact that I've occasionally been taking some seconol I have around isn't exactly a turn for the good (since I know what a potentially lethal drug it is, and of course I know this is a bad thing to do and my doc would be livid with me, but after staying up for two days you will do anything). There has to be something else, any suggestions? I've tried all I know, warm bath, no caffeine, OTC sleeping pills, benadryl, hot tea etc. etc. etc. What I wouldn't give for some REAL sleep right now as opposed to my anxiety-ridden, stop and go sleep that I get now.
But I'll stop babbling now and go lay back down and stare at the ceiling. Thanks in advance