Ahhhh theres that evil T word..."talking". I knew that was going to be the answer. My communication skills suck. It took me a week to gain the courage just to post this. Ask me about fishing, hiking, football...my kids.....I can handle that. Ask me to actually talk about my feelings...Houston, we have a problem. I thought about maybe a letter or email...but that just seems cold. You're both right...I don't want to hurt...it's my job to protect her. My lack of communication skills makes me feel like I'm falling down on the job.
The subject came up again today and I was able to get out that it's not you, it's me. I got the please elaborate look...but I started shutting down. The shrink saved my butt and asked my wife if it would be ok if she and I spoke before we got back into this. My wife agreed. That's an appointment I'm not looking forward to.
In my mind, this was supposed to go the opposite way. I'm supposed to be here complaining about my wife not wanting me to touch her....months down the road.
Harley, I know this talk will have to happen soon...I will do my best to choose my words wisely.
Open Eyes, you been talking to my shrink? Just kidding. I will see what she has to say. I'm pretty sure she is already set to address this issue with me.
Thank you both.
Gman
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