Dear Always

Thank you for replying.

I believe you are utterly correct, that this sort of behaviour does have reprecussions on ones pysche and mine has been "burgled".

The sticking point for me is he tells me that there is a lot of anger in me and it comes out (which is does, I can't swallow it all) and he has reacted to it. Last night he told me he forgives me (this made me more angry!!) but I didn't react.

The other sticking point is he is changing, but I've no idea into what! he is meditating every lunch time now at a buddhist temple near his office, he plans to take a day off next week and meditate for 24 hours in the woods. he doesn't talk in angry tones, he says there is no anger in him, just compassion and care.

I lay on the sofa this morning with my head in my hands and cried and he asked me what is wrong. I said I don't want to talk about it (I have my driving test tomorrow and I can't get anymore emotionally charged as I can't concenrate) and he asked if it was anything he was doing, I'm not at a loss to answer, without him being angry and with him changing so much into an enlighted Buddha, how can I say its him, but I still feel it, he will only say its me.

The whole experience is mind warping.

xx