ACK ACK - I went back and fixed it. I had not meant it like that.

And I have never liked the way drugs made me feel. I have been injured a few times from bike accidents and also had oral surgery - I hate the way the pain killers make me feel (I like that they take away the pain and put me to sleep but not how I feel until I pass out). My partner usually has fits trying to make me take the pills (I think they are more for her benefit because according to her I am a horrible patient). I took an ativan pill once (a friend gave it to me) and I really hated it.
The therapist has said I am too much of a control freak to be an addict. I also have no problem whatsoever taken expired pills if I am going to take a pill in the first place.