This is about therapy because I wish I could have my session and not have to wait 2 more weeks!! I could use help from my DBT leader but I don't think she would return my call in time to help me.

I thought I was helping out with the kids, laundry, dishes but my d. says I'm not helping enough. I always feel triggered when I'm here because I feel like I'm unwanted and unappreciated. But it seems like my d. always feels I don't do anything. I see coming here as a sort of vacation and a time to enjoy my grandchildren. I don't have the energy I had when I was younger though I try my best. It's not good enough, though.

I don't want to get into details but I feel bad about this situation. I am supposed to do the shopping and cooking (but my d is a gourmet cook and I thought she doesn't want me to do it) but she didn't tell me that. She's overworked and overtired but her H helps a lot. My H doesn't feel well and sleeps a lot so he's no help except in buying things they don't want from thrift shops.

I just did many dishes (the dishwasher may be broken) and swept the floor. Last night I got 2 hrs. of sleep because of my allergies. I went with my daughters and the kids to a fun place for them. I didn't know I was supposed to let my d. stay home and I take my grandson.

I am always exhausted when we get back home even though I don't "help". It's not a good situation at all.