Not mentally strong enough at the moment ....Really?

Surely when you are struggling that is when you need therapy?

The MHN (mental health nurse) feels there is too much going on at the moment for her to refer me to therapy... Sure my 4 year old and I are technically homeless sharing a room in a hostel, sure my daughter is having trouble adjusting to all the changes and her behaviour is reflecting it which does stress me out, sure my family have tried contacting me again, sure my dad can be a muppet when he has had too much cannabis, and yes my head is a bit of a mess at the moment.
But not mentally strong enough?

Honestly! She has a little bit of info in a brief outline from my old t, but she has no idea what I have been through and I'm still here, plus if she waits for my life to be on track she could be waiting a long time! Even when all the abuse stopped these last 10 years haven't been a picnic, although 2 t's have said that I was emotionally abused for a further 4 years by my mates mum when I moved in there and still went to see her after she kicked me out for reasons that were selfish on her part and the others were out of my control. Getting off point... If I waited for sunshine and rainbows to ever get therapy I probably wouldnt have been strong enough to get this far.

To be fair though I did have the same discussion with my old t (who was really good), I found out I was going to be made homeless after our 3rd session, and it was limited sessions, so I kept asking her not to devote time to it because it is not the first time I've been put in this position, this is the 4th. So I think I can handle it. I was just angry that this person had made my innocent 4 year old homeless too.

What is it with these people?

Surely I should know where my limit lies?

The reason I went to therapy in the past is to siphon off some of the crap so that I at least felt like I was making a dent in the amount of crap I'd have to sift through at a later date.

It all feel on deaf ears.

Instead I get mood stabilisers, and appointments with her weekly to discuss my mood and all the little stuff that doesn't matter.
In 4-6 weeks I will see the pdoc who can confirm dx (which I was told was confirmed) of PTSD and can check for a possible dx of a mood disorder.

Not mentally strong enough ATM!

Sorry for ranting...