I am tired of simply popping antidepressants and nothing else being resolved. I know that my self esteem is an issue. I know that my thoughts are distorted, I know that I am not alone in this poor economic time with issues of low paying jobs, or no work. I need help in learning to deal with the frustration, the anger, the discouragement, the shame, not to mention empty nest syndrome soon to come from my two sons having been my whole world for the past 22 years and now suddenly the time has come for them to branch out and spread their wings. I will be alone and they have been my whole purpose in life...What now?

I keep thinking of an 80s song Don't Worry, Be Happy. I wish I could just choose to be happy amongst all of this. Is it really just a matter of choice? How does a person just choose to change their whole thought patterns? I am staring at a picture of a target that says Bang Head Here lol