I hate how I look. I loath it... And 5kg can change that, but its too much to ask... I never want to see food again. Honest. I hate food, and how my body does not respond to it. I hate how people think I'm scared of it. I hate food, and I hate my body. Damn it all, I really do give up, I'm sick and tired of trying to not feel crap, I'm tired and hurt that none of my efforts paid off. I want to stay in my dark room with the music blairing forever cos I don want people to see me. Summer's nearly here.